Spring in my Step

Maybe I'm getting ahead of myself, but it seems like my future has made a turn for the better. Can I say thank goodness for holidays and alcohol? Not that I'm a big drinker at all, but gatherings in China are surrounded by the presence of alcohol; or should I say that holidays in China are surrounded heavily by alcohol. Did I mention, I work for a liquor company?

The point is, tonight I made some new friends at work at our annual dinner party. I actually went up to people and conversed with them in Chinglish and have established that we actually do have things in common. Furthermore, earlier today, I asked my manager for a "status update" on my work. He answered that he has seen much improvement and I should not worry myself about my performance. Tonight, especially after some booze, he confessed that I should never have to ask about my "performance status" because no matter if I do anything wrong or right, he is there to support me.

This took me by surprise.

My higher management boss has resembled my father (Hi Dad! I know you're reading this) in some ways: a mentor, but extremely stern - and sometimes unnecessarily.  While I still look up to my dad more, duh, my boss has his way of showing disappointment in people with a clear expression in his face and voice and I can tell you, I get this quite often.  Sadly, I think I am still looking for approval in a childish kind of way and terrified of disappointing my boss. Perhaps tonight I have come upon a revelation where I should not feel like I am always disappointing my bosses, but instead I'm taking many burdens from them.

Like I said, maybe I'm getting ahead of myself. Only time will tell, but I pray that it only gets better from here.

Now the question is... where to go for Chinese New Year?!?!

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